This is a bit of a ‘deep’ post, well, deeper than I usually go anyway! Lately, I’ve been so caught up in planning things, whether thats a new venture the husband and I are working on, Christmas lists (literally NO idea what I’m getting anyone this year) house moves, or even just trying to make sure that the four of us in this flat manage to get at least two evenings together a week, I’ve sort of lost any ounce of creativity I once possessed. It’s like my head has become completely blank, a white space rather than a multi-coloured hash up.
Don’t get me wrong, I love being organised. I have lists everywhere. In my bag, on my phone, on my desk, on my pin board, fridge, and sometimes even on my hand! If I have something to do, it will be on a list & I don’t like to throw it until every single item has been crossed off. I suppose that’s a little OCD but it’s how I work, but I’m starting to realise that by having these lists, I’m stopping myself from just being able to ‘do’. I don’t seem to have a switch off point, I read all these blogs & articles where people have a ‘thing’ to turn to when they’re stuck for ideas. Whether it’s exercise or reading, there is something that helps switch their brain off from the constant need for answers and solutions, and 9 times out of 10, when they switch off, they get that answer that’s been p*ssing around. (Can you tell I have some unanswered questions of my own!?)
So, I’ve taken up yoga. I’m quite good at it too & I enjoy it. It’s not giving me any answers yet, but that’s mainly because I get so into it I end up thinking about nothing at all, but that’s not a bad thing for me once a week! I read a great quote somewhere, “My bed is where I discover all the the things I should have done” SO true for me. I am the type of person who will think of one thing I need to do, but it will turn into a million others & before I know it, it’s 3am and I’m still awake! – Take this blog post for instance, going off on a tangent much?! – I still don’t have my creativity nailed. There are so many things I want to work on, so many ideas bouncing around in my head, but I need to get up off my backside and start doing them. The only thing stopping me, is me. I need to find my creative & organised balance, otherwise I will forever be bouncing around between things & never completing any of them.
I feel a list coming on…..
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