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What is it you want exactly?

I’m having one of those weeks. You know the kind where you just can’t make a decision on anything. From the mundane (dinner?) to the whole big life issue thing. I’m like a proverbial tennis ball on a court, and the players just aren’t missing. Or something like that.

I can’t decide what I want to do with myself. I’ve always been indecisive but right now I’m just a pain in the arse. Do I want more children? Or do I want to stay as we are and do new things with my kiddles. Do I want to have stability and, dare I say it, boredom, in my life, or do I want things to be up in the air and keeping me on my toes. Do I want to grab life by the balls and do whatever, whenever, or do I want to feel safe and un-pushed (not pushed? What’s the right way to phrase that?)

I know. They should all be obvious answers but they’re not. Not to me anyway! I assume I am one of those women (Princess if you must, no, dammit, Queen!) who wants the best of both worlds. Yes I want my frigging cake and I have the cheek to want to eat it too. To quote my eldest, “I know, right!?”

I just get so, what’s the word I’m looking for, URGH, when things stay the same for too long. I like to switch things around. One month I might be all about having another baby and becoming the worlds best housewife, then the following month I couldn’t think of anything worse. Will I ever make a choice and stick with it forever? I can’t imagine I will! It’s like when you finally grow your hair and you decide to cut it again. It’s the whole, the grass is always greener scenario isn’t it? You want what you don’t have. In my case, it doesn’t matter what it is, I’ll want the opposite. And when I get that, I’ll go back to wanting what I had before.

Those closest to me probably feel like they can’t win. And maybe sometimes they can’t. But in the same instance at least they know they’ll never be bored with me around. There will never be that feeling of, same shit different day, because I never know what mood I’m going to wake up in, so how will they? At the moment I’m all about travelling, smaller cars, long weekends away (without smaller people) and lots of non baby-making sex. I’m not up for routine, I don’t want the same old same old. I want excitement and risk (but with lots of lay ins attached to that, let’s not get carried away) I don’t want to feel like life is passing me by, I want to be right up there, grabbing it round the neck and riding it wherever it might take me.

I know. Even I can’t keep up with me sometimes.

 

 

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Monochrome Loves

I’ve got a bit of a thing for the monochrome at the minute, and not just in the fashion department. Walking round Ikea last week (twice in one day, can you believe!?) I was drawn to all the black & white cushions, rugs, bedding, everything.

My wish list this week just seemed to follow that theme….

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1: C’est La Vie T-shirt from Topshop £22

2: Zebra Cardigan H&M £34.99

3: Fiorelli Perry Bag £45 Debenhams

4: Trainers Kurt Geiger £95

I feel a monochrome shopping trip coming up. Black & white goes with everything, right?

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Grown ups.

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I thought I’d start my newly titled blog with a pretty apt post, I’ve moved away from parenting a little bit, but I still don’t feel like a fully fledged grown up. The Bloke and I are both in our 30’s now, and I remember thinking how grown up that sounded when I was in my early 20’s. You know, “by the time I’m 33 I’ll be……” (insert rich, famous, in Paris, a writer as you like!) and obviously, I’m not.

We’re currently discussing our next ‘big’ birthdays, he’ll be *cough* forty and I will be 35 (in two years I’d like to add, not next year!) and the plan is to visit New York together, on our own, without our little darlings. It’s exciting and feels like an adventure, but at the same time, I can’t imagine myself married to a 40 year old. I mean, there’s no getting away from the fact that that is a grown up number. It’s forty! (There’s also the fact that we will have been married for 15 years in the same year, so it’s a pretty big one! Renew vowels? Shop it up in NYC? Decisions!)

You see, while we have jobs, a house, two children and a dog between us, there is still a level of immaturity that I’m not sure will ever go. The Bloke still plays imaginary golf at any opportunity, usually with umbrellas but he’s been known to use sticks and even baguettes if he’s particularly bored walking round Sainbos. My sewing kit is seriously dismal. I have a few reels of cotton (never the colour you need) and a couple of those really weird needles that never get used because they’re blunter than play-doh. We *never* have stamps when we need them, our filing system leaves a lot to be desired (I had to search through TB’s t-shirt drawer the other day, because he was storing stuff in there to be filed “at a later date”) and I cannot find any destination without satnav. I don’t care how clear you make the directions, I’ll lose my way after the second instruction. And don’t even get me started on the fact that hangovers seem to last longer than 1 day now.

But, there’s actually a good balance going on here. Just because you have to tick the next box in the age category doesn’t mean the end of late nights and naughty weekends away. My hair is longer now than it was when I was in my 20s’s and I like it (and have dreams about getting a disastrous haircut then waking up grateful it’s still on my head!) I might keep talking about getting the botox right between my eyes but at the other end of the scale, I don’t actually look that old. Two years ago I was asked for ID, that story will be relived for a long time, get used to it people!

Yes, most of our friends are married and or have kids, so we can’t all drop everything and go for impromptu nights out, but when we do get together, we get together in style (this is where those 2 day hangovers kick in)

I’ve worked out my style and I stick to it, without trying to be a fashion victim. (I also know that a blunt heavy fringe suits nobody over the age of 12. Especially if you have chubby cheeks high cheekbones)

Then, the not so grown up points. Sadly, I still can still put my foot in it at any given moment, like the time I was discussing a photo in an exhibition and explaining how wrong I thought it was compared to the rest of the theme, only to watch the colour drain from TB’s face. The man I was discussing it with was the photographer. And one of TB’s bosses. Fun. I never have calpol/paracetemol/plasters when I need them (yet a million things fall out of the medicine cabinet when I open it?) and I don’t think my underwear will ever be 100% matching.

And lastly, we have the ‘old people who lived a shoe’ qualities, that I like to think of as secrets that must never ever be told to anyone, except you obviously. Gardening. We’re getting a kick out of gardening. You know, herbs, tomatoes, strawberries, flowers, it’s nice to see it all come together and look pretty. A decent cup of tea. I have no time for people who can’t make a good cup of tea. Don’t put the milk in first, don’t swish the tea bag around for a second and don’t use chipped mugs. Or fat milk. Simple. Quiet evenings on the sofa under the blanket with a (decent) cup of tea are almost as nice as getting dressed up and going out. Sometimes nicer. Ironing. Urgh, this one is a real bitch. Now GG is in senior school her uniform doesn’t seem to de-crease after washing, so I had to buy an iron. And an ironing board. And I am now taking great satisfaction in making sure all items of washing are ironed perfectly. I actually hid a shirt from TB yesterday because it is creased and I knew he’d wear it anyway. What am I turning into!?

The truth is, I’m quite happy with our little, young, old, oldest balance and I can’t imagine it changing, no matter how old we get. We’ll still want to blast the tunes out to annoy the neighbours, swing around anything that resembles a golf club and have a good cuppa on the go.

It’s all about balance.

 

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A few changes….

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There are going to be a few changes around here in the next week or so. I’ve decided to merge my two blogs together as one. This one started off as a little online diary about the kids, but it grew and took on a different life of it’s own, which wasn’t really what I had in mind when I started out, but it’s been great all the same. The kids are growing up now, and aside from a few posts here and there, they don’t need me writing about them, it’s hard enough growing up as it is, without your mother using events as blog fodder.

My other site, which was my grown up, honest posts only site was getting neglected. I don’t really have time for one blog, never mind two. So, I have decided to bring them together. This site will soon become Life Daily. A place where I can post all the honesty, funny, food, shopping, ranting, wish list’y posts that I want. Hopefully it will give me back my blogging mojo, and I’ll get back into the swing of writing.

During the summer holidays I have been doing a *lot* of thinking, I’m still not 100% sure on things, but I’ve made a few decisions. The first is I don’t think now is the right time to start studying. I’ve just started a fab new job, which I want to throw myself into, GG is now in senior school, TB is growing up, and I’m not sure I want to add more hard work to something that is running really nicely. I’m also feeling like the path I thought I wanted to take, isn’t quite right. While I am still really interested in counselling and pyschosexual therapy, I still want to write and be creative, so I need to find a balance between the two. What the balance is I have no idea, but when I find it, you’ll be one of the first to know!

So, there we go. My parenting blog will soon be (hopefully) a lifestyle blog. And my lifestyle will soon be pretty much perfect. There’s not really much more you could ask for is there!

 

 

 

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Back to school & eBay bargains

I recently worked with eBay on some back to school bargains, you know, polo shirts, backpacks, pens and so on, the kind of things that you need to buy regularly so it’s nice when you find a good price!

You can read the full piece here if you want to, it would be ever-so kind of you!

 

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Lunch Box Ideas & Capri-Sun

This shop has been compensated by Collective Bias, Inc. and its advertiser. All opinions are mine alone.

****Back to school this week!!!**** Not that I’m looking forward to it or anything!

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The school uniforms are purchased, the shoes have been bought and we’re now onto the last few bits, including packed lunches! GG is starting senior school and has decided she wants to have school dinners as they look a bit more exciting than junior school ones, but The Boy is flitting between both so I’ve stocked the fridge up, but I’m trying to come up with some healthy lunchbox ideas that are a little bit different. He would eat ham sandwiches until they were coming out of his ears, so this term we’re on a mission!

I hit my local Tesco this weekend to have a look for bits and pieces, and take part in the #CapriSunSchool and #CollectiveBias challenge.

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Usually, a typical lunchbox would involve, a sarnie, a bag of mini cheddars, 2 or 3 bits of fruit (they get to eat one piece during their first break) and a yoghurt. Drinks wise water is always preferable, but The Boy hates it and will only drink it under duress, so anything that’s good for him and isn’t fizzy, that he will drink is a hit with me, Capri-Sun is perfect, it’s 75% fruit juice, 25% water and counts as one of their five a day. I’m actually really lucky in that both kids will eat most fruit and veg so I don’t have to battle with that (The Boy even asked for more broccoli at a restaurant this week!) so we probably manage more than 5 a day, but if I can squeeze in 2 more it might cancel out the biscuits they sneak in as soon as they walk through the door! The flavours are also a big hit, with Tropical, Apple & Pear and Apple & Blackcurrant in the Fruit Crush range, as well as apple, orange, summer berries and apple & cherry. I’m sure there was just orange when I was younger…!

#shop #cbias #healthy #lunchbox #kidsI’ve seen so many amazing lunchboxes on Instagram and Pinterest, honestly it puts me to shame! Colourful boxes, sandwiches in shapes, baby pizza slices, home made quiches, I could go on but it just makes me miserable! They look so pretty, I don’t know that I’d even be able to eat it, but it does give me some inspiration! Anything to step away from the boring ham & two slices of wholemeal. I definitely need to get some of those fancy little shaped pots too.

What do you put in the kids lunchboxes that interests them, is good for them and catches their eye? Any ideas are welcome!

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Summer Holiday Madness!

I’m just going to start this post with the fact that the summer holidays are almost over. I know, I know. THANK GOD!

But, during those long, long weeks, it can be a complete pain the proverbial to find things for the kids to do that don’t cost a fortune, cause arguments, mean queueing up for hours on end or just give parents headaches. I’m sure when I was a kid on summer holidays I’d find things to entertain myself, and there definitely wasn’t iPads or playstations to muck about on! (I’m not that old ok?)

So when BettaLiving offered to send me a holiday pack with loads of goodies and a list of 20 ideas to keep the kids busy, I was all like “hell yes!” I’m not going to lie!

Obviously when the box arrived we had to have a peep to see what was in there, but at the time the boy was ill, GG was finishing junior school and it was all crazy, so the box was left in the hallway ready for the fun to start. We finally managed to find a day where we had decided we were staying in our pjs all day, not leaving the house and opening the box was the perfect chilled day activity!

We started off with the skittles of course, the boy couldn’t wait to get his hands on those and they’ve been a huge hit every day since! The pizza making has yet to be done, but we’ve decided on toppings (pepperoni and cheese feature heavily!) The numbers plate is my favourite thing ever! Learn your times tables while you eat dinner? Why not!

The start of our show though? The volcano action! Vinegar and baking soda…..

Now this activity has been beyond the best thing about the summer holiday for the boy! Every single day he’s asked if he can do more explosions! When we first did it, I was a bit (lot) daft and did it inside, so the entire downstairs stank of vinegar for the rest of the day, but then we wised up to that and took it outside. You can hear our enjoyment, and the boy does some great commentary at the end!

Next on the list of “this is so much fun!” was the marshamallow challenge.

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We started off trying to build the tallest tower using the marshmallows and toothpicks, but we soon found out that an 11yo can build a taller tower a lot quicker than a 5yo and things can get a bit stressy, so we went with the technique of one does tall, one does wide. Anything to keep the peace! Of course, towers would be a lot better if people didn’t keep stealing them as they went….

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Kind of defeats the object don’t you think kiddo….!

We’ve still got loads of goodies to get through, the ice lolly moulds are going to be used a lot, I’m going to be hitting Pinterest for some new recipe ideas!

Massive thank you to BettaLiving for sending us the huge box of goodies that have kept us going through the summer!

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